I tend my garden, it's the only thing I care about, I tried liking people but I don't, my relationships with them always end in violence I try to go out and have fun but as soon as I leave my house violence finds me, pressing me to engage, to look, to laugh to engage to push, to make the smallest gesture. to get up and take a piss.

so go away just go away I don't want anything all of you are ugly... so ugly so very fucking ugly I don't have words for it any more